I Don't Get it...get it.

i can't tell you how much i hate how confusing life is and how it makes no sense. like when people you want to dislike so much do something even bitchier, it doesn't make you feel better about hating them. it just makes you feel worst. how the hell does that make any sense? seriously. shouldnt that make you feel better about yourself? shouldnt that rejuvenate you into moving on? no. not at all. i guess it just puts them in your mind. like when you finally think you're okay, they say something bitchy or do something mean, and it just puts them in your mind again. its terrible. it makes no sense.

or when someone says one thing and they do another. how how how does that make any sense? they want to be with you but when they're given the chance to, they don't. at all. it makes me terribly sad. what do i do when that happens? any advice? i hope they don't mean it but what else am i to think? when you dont even talk to me for more than a minute, what else am i to think? gah. i'm at a complete lost. completely. guess i just have to not take anything personally and keep myself to myself. guess so.

:(.